Wednesday, November 24, 2010

November 24, 2009

Gosh it has been a long time since I’ve written in here. We had a fun filled, action packed trip to Disney World and then to Siesta Key to visit Andrea, Jay and little Ella. Ella is adorable, and Grace just LOVED being her “big cousin.” A fun time was had by all!

We returned a week ago Sunday (today is Tuesday) to a disaster of a house. Elle, our 11 year old cocker spaniel, emptied her bladder all over our entire house and also pooped in two places. It was a disgusting mess. We had hired the neighbors to care for her, and apparently that just isn’t an option anymore. She had begun to do this just as we were preparing to leave town and now it was obvious that we were beyond the point of no return. Very, very sad. I cleaned all day into the wee hours the day we arrived back home, then again all day Monday, and then Fred had to fly out of town for another business trip for a whole week, leaving me home to unpack, clean, work, and care for Grace. Elle continued to pee on Tuesday (right in front of me), so very, very sadly I had to have her put to sleep on Wednesday. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. She was our very first baby and we adored her.

Anyway, it has been a long and sad couple of weeks, leaving me little time and energy to journal…

I really wanted to say in here today how much I have to be grateful for. Life is just so good again! We have the very best family and friends. We have each other, a wonderfully loving marriage, and Grace. We have our health and our home. Praise God. What makes life complete finally though on this Thanksgiving is you, our angel—our precious blessing. You complete us and we can’t tell you how blessed that makes us feel.

We had our 8 week ultrasound on Monday and it couldn’t have felt better to see you and to hear your little hear beating. 167 beats per minute—very strong. Everything looked absolutely perfect! The doctor said that because you are so healthy and your heartbeat is so strong there is now only a 3-5% chance of miscarriage. Praise be the Lord! He told us that medically speaking it is ok to tell our family about you.

Grandma Nagel came over tonight unannounced to show us her new car. We asked her to join us for dinner, and I’m so thrilled that she decided to. After dinner we set Grace up with a movie in our room, and I asked Grandma if it would be ok if we told her tonight what we are so thankful for this year, as we head into Thanksgiving. I told her that we are especially thankful for the love and support of our friends and family this past year. I then said that we are particularly grateful for some special friends. I said that we are so grateful to them and for them because they are giving us the greatest gift of all—the gift of life. Yes, I told her, they are 8 weeks pregnant with her biological grandbaby. We told her that she was going to be a grandma again.

She was crying so hard—so absolutely excited. Fred was crying too. This was very special to me because I don’t think Fred has been able to really let his wall down up until now. I know mine chips away a little each day. We just need to pinch ourselves because you are such a dream come true. Grandma said that you are the answer to her dreams and prayers as well.

When Carol Ann left, Fred asked me to please pick out the paint so that he could get working on Grace’s big girl room—getting the nursery ready for you. His wall is on its way down! You are a reality, and you will be joining our family this summer. We cannot wait!!!

Grace has asked for years for a brother or a sister. Last week she said, “Mom, I don’t think God will give me a brother or a sister.” I said “I think he will, honey.” The look on her face was absolutely priceless. Her eyes lit up and she smiled from ear to ear. Her wall is coming down too. I haven’t told her about you, and we won’t for some time. When we do, though, she will be on Cloud 9. She will seriously be the best big sister ever!!!

Love you my little 8 week old peanut! Grow, grow, grow!!!

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