Sunday, June 26, 2011
June 26th, 2010
Well, my little lover—I am about to meet you! You will be in my arms in no more than 4 days. It is Saturday evening and Jamie is scheduled to be induced on Wednesday, June 30th, at 5 am.
Our last OB appointment was yesterday and she was 2-3 cm dilated. The Doctor said that she wouldn’t be surprised if she saw us before Wednesday. Time will tell…
We had a non-stress test done yesterday as a precautionary measure—just to be sure that you were ok. You did not “pass” the test because you were too tired and you were not responsive enough to all of the beeps and vibrations (torture) the nurse put you through. We had to go to the hospital for an ultrasound just to make sure you were ok. The good news is you passed with flying colors, scoring 8 out of 8. They checked the amount of amniotic fluid, your heart rate, your movement and your breathing skills. You did PERFECT!!! We also got to see you in 3D. How FUN! I think you have Grace’s pretty lips and little nose too. You are still our little girl as well. Thank God!
I just cannot believe how amazing the past 9 months have been and how quickly they went by. In no time at all we will be kissing those little lips of yours and holding that little hand. Unbelievable…UNBELIEVABLE!!!
I hope as you read your journey to life in this journal you realize that all things are possible if you want them badly enough. Hopefully you will also see how important great friendships are and aspire to also help others, just as Jamie and her family have helped us. It is also so important that you never judge someone’s journey if you haven’t walked down their life path. Many people haven’t understood our infertility journey—many thought we should just “move on” or “accept” things as they were. Those that we adore supported us through it all—never judging us or our decisions. Find THOSE people. Be THAT person. Be open minded, supportive and loving. Fill your life with people that love and support you. Life is just too short to live it any other way.
Life is also about choices—please, honey, choose to see the cup as half full and enjoy the journey. Take time to smell the roses and cherish the simple things—a beautiful day, a child’s laugh, a call from a loving friend, the waves crashing on the beach, the sunset. These are the things that are important… Not your job title, your salary, the size of your house. These things won’t mean a thing to you on your deathbed. Those that surround you and love you—those that take the time to tell their children about the person you were and the life you lived… Now that’s what matters, that’s what really matters.
Be a good Mom—a really good Mom. No job is more important in my opinion. Remember too that you can do everything, you just can’t do everything at once. Find peace in that and decide to live in and savor the “now.”. “Life is what happens when you are busy making plans.” This is my favorite quote and it is a lesson your Grandma taught me many years ago. Enjoy your journey and learn to roll with the punches. This is no dress rehearsal and there will be no “do over” so you had better enjoy the ride! I have SOOOO enjoyed this ride. Your life journey is better than anything I could have ever created or dreamed up. It was so much more than Jamie, Jamie, your Dad and I could have ever have imagined. It was better than any novel I have ever read or any movie I have ever watched. I would never have had it any other way. It was PERFECT. You have SO many people that cherish you already and you haven’t even been born yet. It took an army of loved ones to help bring you into this world. Amazing how wanted and prayed upon you have been!
Your “journey” into our life, this wonderful life of yours, was anything but typical… It was one extraordinary adventure. Your life will be one extraordinary adventure too! I’m sure of it. Enjoy it my darling…
I cannot wait to meet you, My Love.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo (and a gazillion more),
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